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Measuring Up

A toddler sits besides me in a chair clipped on to our large family kitchen table. He’s a baby I didn’t birth and he certainly appears that way. He’s got a story riddled with pain and trauma and transition. His little heart holds enough…

I Hope I’m Your Rock Bottom

I held your baby tonight. She was sick. Fever raging. Through her tears, she was mumbling but I couldn’t understand what she needed because toddlerspeak isn’t easy to decode for the not-the-mama. She’s only been in my arms for a short time…

Stop Confusing Your Calling with His Commands

As I grew into adulthood, I often wondered, prayed about, wrestled with and sought counsel over my calling. I looked to the lives of so many valiant souls that crossed my unsettled path for direction and motivation. What was I going to do with my life? What was my calling…

When Hope Hides

I’m here again. In a season of shadows and darkness. The light flickers in the distance but its dim. I find myself blinking and staring again to make sure its really there. Loneliness stands to my left. Fear to my right. And when I look at my reflection…

Ordinary People

My husband and I met in college-in a bar.  There was nothing magical about our moment. No fireworks. No crazy sparks. It wasn’t love at first sight. not on my end, at least. I did think he was pretty darn handsome and I came to find…

Foster Siblings: How Little Hearts Hurt

I call you the crazy one. the wild child. the spark plug. elie bug. lucy (we still don’t know why I call you that…just roll with it). You’re always full of sass. We jokingly say that when you are old enough, we’re…

You Are Wanted

I watched you today as your daddy held you close to his chest. I made note of how tiny you still looked in his grip. Certainly you have grown since your arrival just five months ago, entering this world just over six pounds. But you still look small. Fragile, yet…